Complete.

What do you think when you read that word?  Complete.  You finished something, checked everything off your list, closed the book on the last page of the last chapter.
The dictionary definition reads:
Complete:
adjective
1. having all parts or elements; lacking nothing; whole; entire; full:
a complete set of Mark Twain’s writings.

~~~ SCREECH! Wait?  What?!?  That sounds so final.  While, on the one hand, I agree.  When you complete something, it’s done, yet on the other,,,,
When Christ hmissioncompleteung and died on the Cross, it was done.  He even said so – It is Finished.  Or, was it?  No.  On the third day, He arose from the Grave.  Without His resurrection, Christ’s work on the cross was not complete.  There was more to be done.
That brings me to the heart of the matter.  You may or may not be aware, but, in November of 2015, I was gifted Scuba Diving lessons from Live The List Non-Profit.

The folks at Aqua-Hut were amazing.  They understood why I was there, gave fantastic instructions, encouraged me, and knew I could do it.

But.  Mid-spring came and I began to feel like going was not in my wheel house.  Don’t get me wrong, I love the water, I loved what being under the water brought to my soul, my body and my mind. However, I was feeling this isn’t ‘for’ me.  For several months, I felt guilty about not going.  This wasn’t my money.  This was from donations; therefore, I knew I had to ‘complete’ my classes and get certified.

Summer? was a blur.  Busy doesn’t define it for me, I kept saying, I’ll go back ‘tomorrow’.  We all know tomorrow never comes – unless, of course, you are Scarlett O’Hara.

Fall came.  My life was changing, my desires were changing, my ‘list’ was changing. My ‘list’ became hiking, kayaking, backpacking, climbing a mountain.  That, my friends, is not scuba diving!

BUT.  The story isn’t over.  The lessons I did take, the things I did learn, were not so much about scuba, but, about me.  My lessons were complete.  At least, those lessons.  Did I complete my certification? No.  Yet, I’m okay with that.  I did complete that chapter.  My book isn’t done being written yet, but, Scuba completed what I needed.  I grew and stretched in personal, emotional, and spiritual ways I didn’t even know possible. My fire, once smoldering, has been re-kindled.

Maybe you are not sure what sparks you, I’d encourage you to go find out!  I’d also encourage you to not be disappointed in yourself if ‘complete’ looks different than the dictionary definition.

If you ask me, did you ‘complete’ your scuba? My answer will be most assuredly, YES!

Thanks for following along, I’d love your feedback!
Growing in Grace,
Laura G.

Living it Out ~ Step by Step, Part 1.5

Yes, you read that correctly, part 1.5.
In my last blog, Part 1, I shared this:  For about a year prior to his passing, we began to dream big, and decided to live large, as our children had all made it to adult-hood.

Today’s post is more about living life out loud, and what that looks like in my world.  Over the past couple of months, I have felt that, in relationship to ‘why’ I am involved in Beautycounter.

In November, I felt that my why was no longer real.  Didn’t seem real to me, and, if it doesn’t seem real to me, how could it sound real to others?  As I considered that thought, I began to re-word my ‘why’, a portion of it looks like this:
As Ted was retired, we believed that with my income from Beautycounter, we would plan to travel, and live out loud the rest of our lives – however, that plan changed, when he passed away in October of 2013. To say that altered my life, would be an understatement, but to honor his memory, my income with purpose-findyourwhy-v3-300x300Beautycounter is allowing me to pay it forward into areas of giving that Ted held close to his heart, and also give me the opportunity to ‘live our list’,,,

I must confess, when I began to re-work my ‘why’, I had not officially been named the recipient of the Live The List . I was hopeful, but, hadn’t been officially named.  I’m excited to face that challenge, alone, but, not alone, as I know I have the backing of so many widows and widowers who have walked the same path.

I’m also looking forward to 2016 with a new perspective, a new chance to live out loud, pursue my business with passion (re-fired), and continue to discover ‘me’! 59590260a4364acf5ecd5aaa46441117
What about you?  What do you look forward to as 2016 peers down upon us all.
My prayer for you is if you’ve lost your compass,  that you find a new strength, a new purpose, a new hope.

An update on my Scuba Adventure ~ the plan is to begin my lessons soon after the 1st of the year, so – next week!! I’m pretty doggone excited, and am looking forward to you to continue the journey with me!

 

Growing in Grace,
Laura B.
lgbeck59@gmail.com
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One year ago this day ~

Yes, I know – today is the 19th, not the 20th.  It is, however, a Sunday.  To be exact, it is this Sunday a year ago, that The Lord chose to call you home.  I will never say you went before your time, never say, The Lord ‘needed’ you – none of that.  It is appointed unto man once to die.  October 2oth, 2013 was your appointment.

I have spent this week thinking much about our life together, spending time thinking about the last week you spent here with us, even though you could not communicate with us verbally, I know you heard us (hard not to, man! we raised one rambunctious group!)

As I survey our children I look at their personalities and marvel at them.

You gave them strength.
You gave them courage.inmyheart
You gave them solid footing.
You gave them wisdom.
You gave them sandy grit and determination.
You gave them passion.

You taught them that giving up was not an option.
You taught them the value of hard work.
You taught them integrity.
You taught them that no one is a stranger.
You taught them that it really is okay to give someone
the shirt off your back, quite literally.
You taught them how to shoot.
And to throw hawks and knives. And to pee in the woods.
(A trick being handed down to the next generation).

As I look back, I marvel how The Lord wove such a tapestry of love and grace throughout our life.  I marvel at how, as two young people, we stood before Him and promised ourselves to each other for the rest of our lives.  Many hills we climbed, many valleys we walked, but, always together, hand in hand. Some marveled at our ‘together’ness and thought it odd.  It was never odd to me.

So many songs pop into my head when I look back ~ we both loved songs together ~
I took your hand and we walked together and we held on to each other
we certainly did fall into a burning ring of fire
you were certainly my carpenter, and I was certainly your lady
and when you were away, we certainly hungered for our next touch.

Yet, these words: I could have missed the pain; But I’d have had to miss the dance ~ ring true.  Watching you slip from this life into the arms of Christ was painful – but, I would NEVER have missed the dance.  The dance that brought into our lives six wonderful children, and 5 amazing grandboys.  The dance that took us to different states, different jobs, different homes, and different countries.  The dance that taught us that HIS GRACE is Amazing –

What began on August 5, 1978 and ended thirty-five years, 2 months and 15 days later on October 20, 2013 what the BEST DANCE I’ve ever had.

And on that day when my strength is failing
The end draws near and my time has come
Still my soul will sing Your praise unending
Ten thousand years and then forevermore.

You kept your hand upon the throttle; and your eyes upon the rail ~ You have reached the other shore.

 

With love ~
Laura