here you have it.
I simply don’t want to do this alone. I wasn’t supposed to be diving alone, not how I envisioned learning, not how I envisioned chasing rubber torpedo’s in the water, none of it. Yesterday, as I prepared for an event, I pulled this out of my folder. When I saw this post on Michelle’s fb page, I cried. I never thought it would be ‘me’. It is me. It was such a good reminder that yea, IT IS ME!
I also needed to find something buried in my fb messages and ran across this from a dear friend: “I heard you panicked…just get back on the horse. You are stronger than you think.” Thank you, Star, for being my Christopher Robin. Since my epic melt down, I’ve been back and have put my tank together by myself (without any explosions), wrestled the entire contraption out of the water, can pop my ears, clear my mask, and lose my ‘life support system’, all the while feeling rather accomplished. And alone.
I re-listened to my pod cast with Drew Myers from Defining Audacity. (pod cast link, if you’d like to listen). Thank you, Drew, it helps keep me remembering where I am!
I am re-focused on May, and going into it with a pretty full calendar, but, I WILL find the time, because I want to – to get back in the pool again! My friend Linda said, if you want to do it, you’ll find the time. So, here’s to staying focused, carving out the time, staying scheduled, and getting back in the water. Not because I ‘have’ to – but, because I ‘want’ to!
Thanks for following me along on this
Growing in Grace,