I didn’t go today.

(This blog post was not harmed by spell check, grammar check or any other form of perfection.  It is once again, a shoot it from the hip blog.)
I chickened out, ran far away, melted down, choose one or all, and you would be correct.

Saturday’s dive was all set.  Last Saturday that is.  I spent the morning chiseling away on my epic kitchen ‘paint’ job.  kitchen I stopped at noon, knowing full well that I was in the pool at 2:30, and didn’t want to be worn out.   I was excited!  Today I was getting to go in the deep end!  Yea, I’m 56 years old, and am excited about going into the DEEP END of the pool.  With full scuba gear on, flippers, too.  I was EXXXCITED!  Until.  Until I had to wrestle my feet into booties and flippers. Until I had to try to remember to clear my ears every 2 feet.  Until I felt like the walls were closing in on me.
Until I felt like I couldn’t breathe.  Until my instructor, Jeff at The Aqua Hut, said I had a death grip on his finger.  Deep end equals eight feet of water, friends.  Eight. simple. feet.  For pete’s sakes, I had AIR in my lungs, I could touch the bottom, yet, I completely, 100%, totally, melted down.
I’m going to assume that you’ve seen Finding Nemo?  Remember when Nemo decided to swim away, and Marlin had a panic attack? Yup, that was me. marlin-screams-in-eac-in-finding-nemo Complete. It was not happening.  There was no way I was staying in that pool.  Or, at least, the deep end.  I stayed in the shallow end, and swam around like a little baby.  I felt like a wimp.

I could give you many reasons why I had a panic attack, so, I will!  Remember to clear your ears every two feet, remember to breathe right, remember you use your entire leg when you have flippers on.  I was surrounded by walls, and felt they were toppling in on me.

I planned on going back today, hanging in the shallow end, pretend to clear my ears, practice doing so, just keep swimming, keep swimming.  Keep breathing, keep breathing.

This morning, I was struck by the realization that I know the real reason I melted.  It wasn’t supposed to be eyesthis way.  I wasn’t supposed to be taking Scuba Lessons alone.  In that deep end, I should have had these eyes telling me, it’s okay, you can do this.  But, I don’t.  Who knew scuba diving could be emotional?  oy!

A new day is coming, schedules make it a bit crazy, but, early next week, back in the pool I go.  Knowing that I am taking it all, step by step.

 

Thanks for following along,
Growing in Grace,
Laura B.
lgbeck59@gmail.com
Beautycounter by Laura Grayce

 

 

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Oh! Oh! Summer Glow!

There aren’t enough words to say how much I absolutely LOVE Beautycounter’s Glow Sugar Scrub! Words almost escape me.  Almost.  Here in the wildly winter Midwest, it is time to get our feet, legs and elbows ready for that summer sun! It’s been a wild one!  My lovely town boasted #1 worst city for winter this year.  Wow – what an honor! Making it CERTAINLY time to get my summer glow going!

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After you are done scrubbing your feet, legs, arms, shower it all away.  glow Oh, I know that sounds crazy, right?!?? All those nice, emollient-rich oils soothing and hydrating your skin, you want me to wash it away?  No, it doesn’t wash away.  It leaves your skin positively GLOWING!

You may be wondering, what is so special about Sweet Almond Oil? It is a fantastic moisturizer and lubricant that prevents the skin from drying and keeps it free from cracking.  It’s also a rich source of Vitamin E, and with regular use will reduce wrinkles and keep your skin younger looking. Truly, don’t we want our legs looking healthy and glowing?
The Citrus Fruit oils have a very calming effect on the skin, making them a fantastic addition to our Glow Sugar Scrub.  The sugar crystals in our scrub are simply the perfect size for working off that old skin.  My typical routine (in the warmer months) is to sit outside and scrub my feet, paying very close attention to my heels, my toes, ankles and up to my knees.  Yes, your knees get dry and cracked too!  I really made a ritual out of it!  Spend the time on yourself! You deserve it!  After a good scrub, I will rinse off with the hose, simply to not have the lose, dead skin following me inside.  Then, I just take my shower, and enjoy the rich feel of pampered, healthy, glowing skin! With Mother’s Day right around the corner, what could be better?  Buy it for your mom, or buy it for you!  You deserve it!  Not only do you deserve it, you can rest knowing that your skin is getting beautiful the healthy way!  At Beautycounter, we don’t hide behind labels – we tell you the TRUTH about your skin care!

Growing in Grace,
Laura B.
lgbeck59@gmail.com
Join the movement!  Changing skin care; one face at a time!