Eeps! Bookwork for Scuba Diving, who knew?

In that regard, I don’t have much to update! Who knew you had to do book studies, or in this case, online courses for scuba lessons?  Well, I surely didn’t! I truly hope to get into the water within the next couple of weeks. Stay tuned,,,

However, today’s post isn’t about that.  If you are following this blog,widow_large you are aware that I’m a widow, if this is the first time reading this, then, bam! There you have it, I’m a widow.  It’s sort of an interesting badge, ya know?  That word, widow, conjures up quite a bit of emotion doesn’t it?  If you’ve never been there, then good for you!  But, still, what does it make you think?  Oh, what do I say to her?  How are you?  I’m sorry for your loss?  I hope you are ‘moving on’ okay,, eesh! Do you wring your hands when you are finally in a situation where you ‘have to’ say something (ugh)? Nothing?  Yea, all of those and so much more.  For those of us that are in this club we call widowhood, it’s lihappytenke this:
Does it make sense now?  Perhaps you’ve encountered a widow or widower and thought for sure they’ve lost their mind.  No, not typically.  It’s an emotional roller coaster that you simply can’t imagine!

But, I digress – the super-quick low-down of the life of a widow isn’t even why I’m writing today.  Recently, I’ve seen this meme (boy, that’s quite an odd word) on Facebook: tears stop

I have to say, I just don’t agree with that.  My story should continue to evoke emotion.  Shouldn’t yours?  Especially in this club called widowhood.  Without my story, I am not the woman I’ve become.  Nor the one I will be tomorrow.  No, I’m not asking for your pity, I’m not looking for condolences, but the reality is, my story does make me cry!  Does that mean I’m stuck?  By no means.  It means that I loved deeply, remember strongly, and will live on, and out loud.  Have I not healed?  What does that even mean to a widow?  Healed sort of sounds like ‘move on’.  There is so much more to being a widow then healing, or moving on, or, or, however you would choose to say it.

My sister is a widow, and re-married and she still is moved to tears over what isn’t any more.  Is she sad that she is now married to her Chapter Two? No, but, her first husband was the father of her children, she spent over 30 years married to him!  Life is beautiful, and I’m really thankful that her story still moves her to cry; because then I know it’s okay for mine to also!

I pray that my story will continue to evoke emotion.  I was married for 35 years. I pray that his memory will still sometimes leak out of my eyes.  I also know that I am a much stronger person today then I ever imagined.

What are your thoughts?  Does your story still bring you some tears?  Has your story had no bumps?  We all have a story, and for myself, I will hold mine close to my heart so that when I share it, I be able to share it with passion, with emotion, some of which will bring tears, others that will bring laughter, but it will always be with love.

Thanks for following my journey!
Growing in Grace,Laura B.
lgbeck59@gmail.com

Living it Out ~ Step by Step, Part 1.5

Yes, you read that correctly, part 1.5.
In my last blog, Part 1, I shared this:  For about a year prior to his passing, we began to dream big, and decided to live large, as our children had all made it to adult-hood.

Today’s post is more about living life out loud, and what that looks like in my world.  Over the past couple of months, I have felt that, in relationship to ‘why’ I am involved in Beautycounter.

In November, I felt that my why was no longer real.  Didn’t seem real to me, and, if it doesn’t seem real to me, how could it sound real to others?  As I considered that thought, I began to re-word my ‘why’, a portion of it looks like this:
As Ted was retired, we believed that with my income from Beautycounter, we would plan to travel, and live out loud the rest of our lives – however, that plan changed, when he passed away in October of 2013. To say that altered my life, would be an understatement, but to honor his memory, my income with purpose-findyourwhy-v3-300x300Beautycounter is allowing me to pay it forward into areas of giving that Ted held close to his heart, and also give me the opportunity to ‘live our list’,,,

I must confess, when I began to re-work my ‘why’, I had not officially been named the recipient of the Live The List . I was hopeful, but, hadn’t been officially named.  I’m excited to face that challenge, alone, but, not alone, as I know I have the backing of so many widows and widowers who have walked the same path.

I’m also looking forward to 2016 with a new perspective, a new chance to live out loud, pursue my business with passion (re-fired), and continue to discover ‘me’! 59590260a4364acf5ecd5aaa46441117
What about you?  What do you look forward to as 2016 peers down upon us all.
My prayer for you is if you’ve lost your compass,  that you find a new strength, a new purpose, a new hope.

An update on my Scuba Adventure ~ the plan is to begin my lessons soon after the 1st of the year, so – next week!! I’m pretty doggone excited, and am looking forward to you to continue the journey with me!

 

Growing in Grace,
Laura B.
lgbeck59@gmail.com
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Living it out, step by step ~ Part One

Do you know me?  Maybe not, maybe you do, maybe you follow my (very sporadic) blog posts.  Over the next few weeks, or, however, long it takes, I’m inviting you to go on a journey with me.

In October of 2013, my beloved went home to be with the Lord.  For about a year prior to his passing, we began to dream big, and decided to live large, as our children had all made it to adult-hood.  One of the big plans/dreams was to take scuba diving lessons, become certified, and dive in exotic places around the world.  Sadly, that did not materialize.   I gave up on living live out loud.  Or, at least, on those things we were going to do ‘together’.  As a matter of fact, one friend encouraged me to still dive, and I said, no – I didn’t even want to do that anymore.

I would have to say, about a year and a half into my ‘new normal’ journey, I stumbled upon a facebook page entitled One Fit Widow.  Her story of loss, but, more importantly, her desire to live, and to live out loud,  was simply inspiring for me.  She is truly, in my mind, a super-hero.

That is the back-story to where I find myself today. One of the facets of Michelle’s life is the building of a not-for-profit organization, called Live the List.  Michelle’s passion, along with her husband Keith (chapter 2, isn’t that amazing to be doubly blessed?), want to see widows and widowers live out the passions that they were unable to do because of the death of their spouse.

The Wednesday prior to Thanksgiving, I applied.  I thought, I can’t lose, right?  I reached out to the Aqua-Hut to determine the cost of classes, etc.  It was soon after the first of the month that I saw this on Facebook:
fbscreenMan!  Did I feel honored that Michelle was posting about ‘me’.  I wanted to burst, so I did.  into tears!
On December 8th, I posted this on my Instagram, and Facebook: It was a couple of hours later that I received an email from Live the List that I had been selected!  So, yeoceans, I burst out in tears.   You probably are getting a pattern here!
Tears.  I read the email to my son, as I cried.
When I think about this, I continue to cry.  I am truly humbled and blessed beyond measure that I was chosen for this truly memorable gift!

Last night, I couldn’t sleep – as I scrolled Facebook, I ran across this post on the One Fit Widow Facebook Page:

Tonight I want to tell you a love story.

In the photo below is a beautiful couple who shared a lifetime together. This is Ted and Laura and they first met 12/31/1977 when they were snowed in for 5 days STRAIGHT at Laura’s sisters house during the blizzard of 78.

Talk about fate and timing!

For 35 plus years and 6 children – Laura loved Ted and Ted loved Laura.

Ted dreamed of taking scuba diving lessons when he recovered and received a liver transplant. Unfortunately Ted never got the chance to make this dream come true.onefitwidowpic

Laura has come to Live The List Nonprofit to help her complete this wish of Ted’s. She has decided it will help her move forward boldly with her own personal future all while honoring a man who gave her all of him.

That’s what our nonprofit wants to offer. You see, by fulfilling dreams they had for their future in many ways we decide to keep living our future. That’s what I personally learned when I started living Mitch’s list and I love that other widowers are able to have that incredible feeling too. Many widows don’t have the financial resources to have these simple moments of pure happiness because the difficult situations they were left in leave them strapped. No time to think of themselves and their wishes for the future. We want to grant as many wishes as possible because we believe it makes a difference in many lives.

Laura, I can’t wait to see the photos from your dive and I’m so glad our nonprofit was able to help you live this dream for Ted but also for YOU.

By December 31st our goal is to raise $10,000 for our baby nonprofit. We have currently raised about $2000. We are a 501c3 organization which means some or all of your donation is tax deductible. If everyone just gave $20 tonight we’d long surpass our goal and be able to help countless widows/widowers.

Can you help us help others Live the List?

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for any shares or donations. We can’t do it without you.

Good night world – together we can make a difference,

Michelle

Guess what happened??? I cried my eyes out!!

With that, I’ll wrap up post #1.  I would love to see you follow my journey!
You can simply subscribe to my blog for updates!

Growing in Grace,
Laura B.
lgbeck59@gmail.com

 

 

 

Mother’s Day, 2015; What I’ve Been Longing To Say For Years

D.H. Barbara

It’s the second Sunday in May and here in Colorado you can almost bank on it being one of two things. Super hot or snowy. Today it’s snowy. It reminds me of May, 2008, when we moved to this wonderful, bi-polarized weather state. It did clear up to spend my first Mother’s Day here on a beautiful day.

Yes, this is a post about remembering, but it may not be the type of Mother’s Day post you’re expecting. Even if that’s the case, please read through. I’d like to tell you about some women, for whom this day is not joyful. I tell you about them, not to diminish your joy in the day, but to see that there is a need for prayer over them. For, if you are a believer on our Lord Jesus as your Savior and King, you are called to pray for the hurting.

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Oh my, oh my! Who knew?

Let’s face it.  When I made all of my own products, they rocked. That is simply the truth.  My sugar scrub was amazing, my lotions, and, well, my body butter could NOT be outdone.  I’m really not tooting my own horn, it simply ‘is what it is’ or, better put. Was. So, imagine (she says a tad bit sarcastically), when I got wind that Beautycounter had a Body Butter coming out.  I, of course, thought ~harumph ~ However! COMPLETELY impressed with the host of yummy, nourishing ingredients!

With that being said, today Beautcyounter launched our Enrich Body ButterbodybutterGood night.  Formulated with Shea butter and Mongongo oil, enriched with Sunflower Oil, Aloe, Vitamin E, and an entire host of other botanicals, you simply can’t go wrong with this product!

Pair that up with our wonderful Glow Sugar Scrub you will keep those legs fresh, hydrated and looking 0h so good as summer comes upon us.  And, truth be told, don’t we just want our legs to look fantastic in the summer? Of course we do! When you get your pedi done for those strappy little sandals, make sure you have it with you.  Boy, will your nail tech be impressed!

The best part?  Absolutely, completely FREE of any toxins, that are simply not good for your skin.  You can rest easy knowing that those glowing, sun-kissed legs are healthy and hydrated!

 

 

Until next time ~

Growing in Grace,
Laura B.
lgbeck59@gmail.com
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I’m sick of cancer.

I’m sick of knowing a very dear friend is battling this awful sentence.
I’m sick of knowing that as I type this, my very dear friend, Barb, is at a Home Going service for a friend of hers who lost the battle.
I’m sick of reading on Facebook that a friend from high school just found out she has breast cancer.  To then read a comment, ‘that is the most curable kinds of cancer’.  Fantastic.
I’m sick of the FACT that 1:2 MEN – MEN – did you read that men?? Raise your hand with the fellow next to you.  ONE of you will get cancer.
I’m sick of the fact that 1:3 Women will get cancer.  With 1:8 of those women getting breast cancer, while only 10% of those are genetically pre-disposed to it.

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I’m sick of autoimmune issues.
I’m sick of children being born with 200 toxic chemicals in their cord blood.
I’m sick of parents being told that their newborns’ cleft lip was caused by environmental hazards.
I’m sick of parents having to lose their children from incurable childhood diseases.
I’m sick of living in a nation with the first generation of children will live sicker and die younger then ANY OTHER generation before us.

I’m sick of an eight BILLION dollar industry in this nation to be virtually unregulated.  The regulation that stands, and governs this industry, is roughly 300 pages long with 1.5 pages governing this ENTIRE industry. As a result, the personal care manufacturers can, and DO put anything in their personal care products, and can get away with calling it ‘natural’ and/or ‘organic’ with close to zero of either, or let’s consider what natural and organic can mean.  Poison Ivy Oil is both.  I can guarantee you that you do not want it in my shampoo.

2015-03-20 09.15.41 I’m sick of stores targeting our young girls with products that contain cancer causing, hormone disrupting ingredients that attribute to early-onset puberty.  Sick of other manufacturers targeting our young men with the same sort of ingredients, causing the same sort of issues.

Yet, among all of this darkness, among all of these terrible, awful, nasty FACTS, the truth and the light is beginning to shine.

About a decade ago, a beautiful woman, Heather White, started a data-base within her not-for-profit organization, Environmental Working Group. The data base, Skin Deep is what I began to use during my soapy days.  It changed the way I looked at ingredients, formulas and products.  I went against the traditional soap/lotion methods, creating products that were safe(er) then what I had made previously, and took a lot of static from others’ in the ‘at home’ soap makers.

Thankful that my passion for creating, led me to becoming part of a movement and a change.  Thankful to have linked arms with women and men all across the nation that believe in, and are moving forward with CHANGE.  Thankful that American Citizens are beginning to wake up to the toxic burden personal care products have on us.  Thankful to Gregg Renfrew for having a burden for our skin health, and is moving on Capitol Hill to make our law-makers aware that this industry NEEDS regulation.

It’s time for a change.  Will you link arms with us, and counter the culture in relationship to the Personal Care Industry?
One last thing ~ Please take 15 minutes and watch this video.  It’s completely worth your time.

I look forward to hearing from you!

Growing in Grace ~
Laura B.
lgbeck59@gmail.com
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Time to Win ~ Countertime give-away!

Who doesn’t LOVE to win?  Here’s your chance to win a sample set of Beautycounter’s anti-aging line ~ Countertime!
20150221_092447 I would LOVE to send you a sample! Gives you the opportunity to test-drive it, and have a nice addition for your travel needs!

A sample of the Mercedes of skin-care.
A sample that will leave your face hydrated and glowing.
(Now, what woman doesn’t want that?)
A sample of a marine and botanically based anti-aging system.
A sample with proven results, driven by ‘real’ people results, and scientific measurements – for example – 100% of women showed a significant increase in skin hydration.
From a company that carries the most amazing lip sheers around ~ lead free at that!
A company that is committed to NO toxins in your  skin care ~
A company that delivers on it’s promise ~ making  sure you KNOW EVERYTHING about what is in your skin care ~ from your kids’ shampoo to your shave cream, eye cream, body wash, YOUR shampoo, and the most devine hydrate body lotion.  lips

Beautycounters commitment is to progress, not perfection.  We will continually strive to make sure your skin care is safe, checking and re-checking industry standards; checking and re-checking the formulations; checking and re-checking your products before they come to your front door.

How, you may ask, do you enter to WIN the Countertime sample? Simply place an order in any amount via the link on my page LAURA’S BEAUTYCOUNTER. Use the shop tab: – Blog give away when making your purchase, and you will automatically be entered to win.

No surveys to fill out, you don’t have to tweet, pin, blog, post or anything. Of course, feel FREE to share all around! #bloggiveaway. However, you only have until 2/28 to be entered~ Happy shopping!
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Growing in Grace ~
Laura B.
lgbeck59@gmail.com
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