In that regard, I don’t have much to update! Who knew you had to do book studies, or in this case, online courses for scuba lessons? Well, I surely didn’t! I truly hope to get into the water within the next couple of weeks. Stay tuned,,,
However, today’s post isn’t about that. If you are following this blog, you are aware that I’m a widow, if this is the first time reading this, then, bam! There you have it, I’m a widow. It’s sort of an interesting badge, ya know? That word, widow, conjures up quite a bit of emotion doesn’t it? If you’ve never been there, then good for you! But, still, what does it make you think? Oh, what do I say to her? How are you? I’m sorry for your loss? I hope you are ‘moving on’ okay,, eesh! Do you wring your hands when you are finally in a situation where you ‘have to’ say something (ugh)? Nothing? Yea, all of those and so much more. For those of us that are in this club we call widowhood, it’s like this:
Does it make sense now? Perhaps you’ve encountered a widow or widower and thought for sure they’ve lost their mind. No, not typically. It’s an emotional roller coaster that you simply can’t imagine!
But, I digress – the super-quick low-down of the life of a widow isn’t even why I’m writing today. Recently, I’ve seen this meme (boy, that’s quite an odd word) on Facebook:
I have to say, I just don’t agree with that. My story should continue to evoke emotion. Shouldn’t yours? Especially in this club called widowhood. Without my story, I am not the woman I’ve become. Nor the one I will be tomorrow. No, I’m not asking for your pity, I’m not looking for condolences, but the reality is, my story does make me cry! Does that mean I’m stuck? By no means. It means that I loved deeply, remember strongly, and will live on, and out loud. Have I not healed? What does that even mean to a widow? Healed sort of sounds like ‘move on’. There is so much more to being a widow then healing, or moving on, or, or, however you would choose to say it.
My sister is a widow, and re-married and she still is moved to tears over what isn’t any more. Is she sad that she is now married to her Chapter Two? No, but, her first husband was the father of her children, she spent over 30 years married to him! Life is beautiful, and I’m really thankful that her story still moves her to cry; because then I know it’s okay for mine to also!
I pray that my story will continue to evoke emotion. I was married for 35 years. I pray that his memory will still sometimes leak out of my eyes. I also know that I am a much stronger person today then I ever imagined.
What are your thoughts? Does your story still bring you some tears? Has your story had no bumps? We all have a story, and for myself, I will hold mine close to my heart so that when I share it, I be able to share it with passion, with emotion, some of which will bring tears, others that will bring laughter, but it will always be with love.
Thanks for following my journey!
Growing in Grace,Laura B.